Some days my ability to stay optimistic is wavered by the harsh blows of life. I roll with the punches as best as I can, but some days I am just too beat down.
Both Kev and I have been working hard and tirelessly to make a better life for our family; but some days I feel like as hard as we try we are no closer than we were months before. I find myself jealous, bitter and resentful at others who complain about their (not so bad) problems, or rejoicing over their (undeserved) rewards. This is unfair to them and to us. I have no business assuming that someone else is more or less deserving of anything, and I definitely cannot judge the severity of another's perceived problems. At the same time downgrading the hard-work that Kev and I are both doing is like saying that it's all for not. Sometimes I just find myself wondering why good, honest, and hardworking people have to fight so much harder to get ahead in life. It hardly seems fair.
Since the start of the new quarter Kevin and I have been faced with opposing schedules. This leaves us seeing each other one hour in passing on the weekdays. Weekends are packed full of homework and the neglected house work from the week. The days are long and the weeks exhausting. We are tired, overworked, and severely underpaid. We are making it though the days with the help of coffee and the laughter of our children. We are eating our elephant one bite at a time. Assisting each other with homework, alternating weekend sleep ins, and reminding each other that this too shall pass (we hope). For we both know in order to enjoy the fun downhill sled of life we must first climb the mountain.
|Day 2: Waiting on the doorstep for me.|
|Day 3: The fun continues!|
Although times are hard right now, I am so privileged to have the life I do.
I have an amazing family. My husband is the most supportive and loving man a woman could ever ask for. My children are amazing, wonderful little people that bring the most unbelievable joy to my life each day. Every morning my kids wake up to their mom and dad happy and together, something that is a rarity in today's society. I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, cloths on my back and shoes on my feet. I have a life that people wish for. One filled with fun, laughter, love and compassion. I have the things in life that money cannot buy and I am so much richer than I can ever dream of.
There will be times when I am down. When life isn't going the way I had hoped or plan. When finances are low and spirits lower. There will always be someone out there with more money than me and less problems. Someone complaining of problems that I only wished I could have. However,with each passing day I am beginning to understand that a good life is one when you assume nothing, do more, need less, smile often, dream big, laugh a lot, and realize how truly blessed you currently are.
So today I will put my bitter resentment aside, and I will cuddle on the couch my my husband, while my kids sleep peacefully in their room. And I will be grateful to have this exact, perfect, and wonderful moment that someone is wishing for...
...Never take for granted what you have. And remember that life is what is happening while you are too busy making plans for the future.