11 January 2013

{My Dearest Son}

My Dearest Kameron:

        Tomorrow is your 1st Birthday, and as you will soon learn your mom is an emotional wreck. I have spent countless hours the last few days crying over this bitter-sweet milestone. Your conception was a pleasant surprise and from the moment I laid eyes on your positive pregnancy test, I loved you!  You grew inside of me, sleeping in the most perfect darkness. With every kick, hiccup, turn and jab I knew you would be a strong little boy!

BOY! Those three letters echoed over and over again in my head the first time I heard them. I was going to have a boy! Just when I was getting used to having a girl you came along. Hair flowers, dresses, tutus and pink was all I knew. I was thrilled, excited, nervous, confused and scared! I had so many questions. How do I raise a boy? How will I teach him to use the bathroom? Do I circumcise him?  How can I possibly love this little person as much as I love Kaydence? How does a mother share love, attention, affection? 

You entered this world on January 12, 2012 (9 days past your due date), after 45 days of contractions, 12 hours of labor, and 4 very hard laboring pushes (and lots of tugging). You were a whooping 9lbs 12oz, which explains the massive back pain I always had and the fact that you got stuck on your way out. The moment I laid eyes on you, it was love at first site. I immediately felt silly for thinking I couldn't love you as much as your sister, because upon seeing you my heart instantly doubled in size. There was no need to make room, my heart had it covered!

January 12, 2012

In the past year you have grown into the most amazing little boy. You favor your daddy in looks, but you most definitely have my temperament {sorry:-)}. Your dimples and blue eyes melt my heart with ever smile. You love to dance and love your sister more than anything in the world (even when she is not alway so nice). You are a "chubby little cubby all stuffed with fluff," and it only takes the wave of carrot (or any food for that matter) to calm you down. Your giggle is heartwarming and your laugh contagious. My love for you grows ever more deep with every passing day, and I couldn't imagine my life without you in it. 

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I will forever love you, and will always be her for you when you need me. You are my son, and I am excited to watch you progress into the most amazing little man, but just for a little while longer I would love for you to stay my simple, precious little baby boy!

Happy Birthday my favorite little guy!
Mommy, Daddy and Sister Love you with every fiber of our being!

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